Bleh. Can't sleep.
This long-distance relationship is taking a toll on me. It's not hard to stay true, not at all. Just hard to be so far from the one I love. I know it'll be worth it, but trudging through it is hard. Trying to keep my chin up.
Looking for a second job. Need to save up money so I can go home early. Signed a one year lease. Can't leave my roommates hanging, since they're my 3 best friends. My options are find someone to sub-lease or move home and pay rent on a place I'm not living in. Honestly, I'm willing to shell out the cash.
It's worth it. Gotta go home. Just can't be happy here. It was what I wanted, what I thought I wanted, back in May. It took leaving my hometown for me to realise that everything I need was right there, in the palm of my hand.
My love. My family. Good friends. A good job that I loved. A school where I could earn my AA cost-efficiently. A small, close-knit community nestled in the most beautiful, serene, amazing landscape; the place to build my family.
In a couple years, of course.
But anyway. Second job. Bartending, serving, hosting, stocking, I don't care. Something I can do at night, after I'm done with my crappy retail job. Something with tips, preferably. Make that extra money, come home, and be happy.
'Cause I just can't do it here.
But don't worry, baby, I am holding onto the hope you give me when I'm home.- "Soulless" by Fake Problems